Taking a look at myself

In the recent weeks I've decided to make some changes in my life and I think it's because I just turned 30. I didn't think I was going to have this reaction to turning 30 but I believe I was wrong. The first and most major change actually came about 3 months ago when I quit smoking. It was actually a bet made with a guy I play pool with, who only wanted to help me quit, so we bet $50 and I had to give him 3-1 odds. So if I smoke before May 13 I owe him $150. This was the kick in the ass I needed to help me quit. In my opinion the biggest reason people fail at quitting smoking is because they are trying to quit because they should and not because they want to. So when they have a bad day they say fuck it and light up because they actually still want to smoke. This was my problem, I actually enjoy smoking and everything about it except the fact it's gonna kill me. I couldn't quit because I didn't want to but when I was faced with a large monetary loss it forced me to look at what was really important. On a side note I will not be accepting the $50 from the bet if I do win, I will buy us a couple drinks or something because the possibility of losing $150 has helped me make one of the biggest decisions of my life. Thank You Frank Hooper.

Something else my wife and I decided to do this year was to give back. We're unsure of to what or whom we will be giving to, but we realize we're in a fortunate position to help others and we are excited to do so.

I am also trying to fix a personal flaw that I have. I am often times too hard on people and expect too much from them. I have this expectation for whatever they do or say to be correct. Obviously nobody can meet these expectations so when they do eventually fail I am annoyed and feel like I can't trust anybody to do anything and put more pressure on myself and more work on my plate. This is very unfair to people I work with and people I interact with and hope I can treat people more fair.

I'm just trying to watch how I treat and act toward people and be a better person. This is why I changed my blog gadget(on the side) from my "list-o-shit that annoys me" to "My Pool Lingo" because I don't want to be mean and rude to people for the sake of being mean and rude. I'm considering some other life changes but am not going to share just yet as I haven't decided how to approach the solution to a problem that a certain overindulgence tends to bring about. Will share more once I decide.