Introvert

I was reading something on Facebook about introverts, like 10 things the like or don't or something, some stupid ass Facebook thing. Anyways, I've never been big into giving myself conditions or labeling myself a certain way. I just roll with the flow and over the years realize certain things that bother me and try and stay out of those positions. After reading the list of things for introverts, I realize that I'm a pretty full blown introvert. Not all the things pertain to me, but the majority do. It's kind of bizarre that at the age of 34, I've finally figured out that I'm an introvert. Now if I could get this to everyone I know and have them not do the things on here I'll be set! That's a joke, the list is convenient for me and wife, but aside from that, life deals you hands that are going to make introverts (or any "special" type of person") uncomfortable and you have to deal with shit. It's nice to know, but, it won't change my life in any way.

My opinion of these types of things, are that it gives us excuses for doing or behaving in an unseemly manner. Yes, I HATE to be embarrassed in public or be put on the spot to talk or answer a question but being a jerk to my wife (which I sometimes will) is not an okay response. I have to try and deal with the situation the best I can. I will say that it's comforting to know that other people go through the same thing as me, and that I'm not some quiet weirdo. One of the introvert things is "Give them time to think, don't demand instant answers", which really applies to me. I'm a fairly smart person, but it takes me some time to form my thoughts and so in an argument or debate I often feel rather stupid because I can't respond quickly.

Thursday League

Had my APA 23 league last night. We had to go to a shit hole bar on the other side of town. I hate this bar, I hate their tables, I hate their bathrooms, I hate everything about this place. But, one of the things I'm trying to work on in my game is not being such a little bitch. I usually get annoyed when I have to play at a place like this, but my goal is to embrace a surrounding I don't like or am not used to. And, to top it off, one of their players was a "talker". Real nice guy, but wouldn't shut the fuck up. Talking to me while I'm playing, which used to would have sent me into a new level of pissed-offed-ness, but I rolled with it. Never getting upset and never letting any of these things get me off my game. I played lights out and won 5-0. First 3 games was a total of 2 innings. The last 2 games were longer because the table was tied up. I safetied the fuck out of this guy and won very easily. Felt good to play well again, I haven't played really good in some time.

Fucking Insurance

On Monday night, some fucktard backed into one of my semi's. Hit the door, air cleaner, and mirror. Well, the total for this is $5100. It was obvious it's the other guys fault but until the insurance does their thing to make sure that's the case, I have to pay my $2500 deductible to get the repairs rolling. The truck is going to be down 2 weeks as it is (probably $10k gross of work) and if I wanted to wait until they got word it was the other companies fault (so I wouldn't have to pay my $2500) it likely would have been 4 weeks. I'll be able to bill back my $2500 deductible and my down time with little problem (hope-fucking-fully anyways) but until then I'm out:
2 nights hotel for my guy - $135
Rental car to get home - $400
His salary while off for 2 weeks - $2200
Deductible - $2500
Grand total $5235 (so far).

For something that wasn't our fault and the other company is insured by the same exact insurance company. I understand things don't work at the speed I'd like them to (or anyone in my position) but it's just the dealing with them in general. I speak to him Tuesday first thing, repair facility sends estimate to him in afternoon. I email and call him 3 times yesterday with no response. He finally gets back to me today and says he never received anything. Fucking jackass.

Shit on my mind

Pool.
I think I might be over playing pool. I have a hard time being motivated to play good. I get there and I'm just wanting it to be over, and I'm not overly concerned whether I win or lose. I used to get up for playing a good opponent and now I basically lay down. If I'm playing well then I'll win or be competitive but if I'm slightly off then I just basically give up. I'm only playing Thursday night league for the next couple months with wife and friends. Taking Tuesday off for foreseeable future and Wednesday BCA league I run will probably start up in October sometime. I'm hoping some time away from so much pool will reinvigorate me. I usually have a lag in summer, but never been this bad. I almost want to not play at all for a while and see how I feel.

Work.
Work been fucking crappy. I've had guys off and break downs and been scraping by. Then, I get everything rolling and some fucktard backs into my truck. It's going to be down for a couple weeks probably.

Life.
I was watching Last Week Tonight and John Oliver was talking about Colorado baker who wouldn't do a wedding cake for gay couple. Oliver stated that the guy had done other things for gay people but due to his religious views, he wouldn't do a wedding cake. Now, I'm all for gays having equal rights and should be allowed to get married and do whatever they want. And, I'm not religious at all, NOT AT ALL. However, if the goal is for people to be tolerant then I believe the baker absolutely fits that description. He's made pastries (or whatever) for gay people as reported by JO. His religion (however fucking cooky I believe it to be) says that marriage is between a man and a woman and he should be able to live his life according to his religious beliefs. If tolerance is the goal, why is it wrong to be intolerant towards gays (or blacks, hispanics, or whatever) but okay to be intolerant to people who hold different beliefs than what's politically correct. I'm most likely in the minority here (among liberal thinking people anyways) but I believe he is tolerant of them (as he's provided other services to them) but he refuses to celebrate their "choice". I don't think we should have to love the things other people do, but respect them and their choices. I feel that was done in this scenario.